The Unveiling of His Glory

Today's reading from http://www.ransomedheart.com/ :

"The thought of me being called out of hiding is unnerving. I don't think I want to be seen. Many years ago, during my life in the theater, I received a standing ovation for a performance. The audience was literally on its feet, cheering. What actor doesn't crave a standing ovation? So you know what I did? I ran. Literally. As soon as the curtain went down I bolted for the door, so I wouldn't have to talk to anyone. I didn't want to be seen. I know, it's weird, but I'll bet you feel the same about being unveiled.

You probably can't imagine there being a glory to your life, let alone one that the Enemy fears. But remember-things are not what they seem. We are not what we seem. You probably believed that your heart was bad too. I pray that fog of poison gas from the pit of hell is fading away in the wind of God's truth. And there is more. Not only does Christ say to you that your heart is good, he invites you now out of the shadows to unveil your glory. You have a role you never dreamed of having.

There's the beautiful scene toward the end of Joseph's life where he, too, is unveiled. The very brothers who sold him into slavery as a boy are standing before what they believe is an angry Egyptian lord, equal in power to Pharaoh himself, their knees knocking. The silver cup of this dreaded lord was found stashed away in their luggage as they headed out of town-placed there by Joseph himself as a ruse. Now Joseph interrogates them till they squirm, deepening the plot by using an interpreter as if he doesn't understand Hebrew, pressing them hard. Finally, unable to hold back his tears, he reveals himself: "I am Joseph; does my father still live? . . . So you shall tell my father of all my glory in Egypt . . . and you shall hurry and bring my father down here" (Gen. 45:3, 13 NKJV). This is who I really am! Tell him about my glory! Amazing. "

John Eldredge (Waking the Dead , 72-73)

This reading today had a huge impact on me.

My life is very soon to be "unveiled".

My life circumstances will soon become more public.

And, I am a very private person.

To say that I am struggling with this would be an understatement.

Even though my conscience is clear and I can hold my head high in how I have handled some very difficult circumstances, it is still a very vulnerable position I feel I am in. And, it is so difficult not to be succumb to very intense anger at the person who made the choices that created this vulnerability for me.

I want to run and hide.

I want to find a cave to hide in and stay away from the world until this all blows over.

But I know I can't, and that it would not be good for me anyway.

"Not only does Christ say to you that your heart is good, he invites you now out of the shadows to unveil your glory. You have a role you never dreamed of having. "

Wow. I am being invited out of the shadows that this situation has pushed me into.... shadows of shame, hurt, betrayal and pain. I am being invited out to unveil my glory.... the truth of who I am in HIM. My role as His daughter, his beloved. That is truth. That is worth revealing in all its glory.

And I have a role I never dreamed of having!

I don't know what my life will bring on the other side of this. But, I do know that my heart is good. I do know that I am loved. I do know that I am worthy of love. I do know that I have a lot to offer this world.

So, what role I play in the unfolding drama of life is yet to be seen. But I believe it will be good. I believe this because my Father is good, and he holds my life in His hands.

There will be hardships and difficulties, yes. There is still some very, very difficult circumstances I need to get through.

But, I will get through them.

And, what comes on the other side could be very good.

So, I am choosing not to be afraid of the "unveiling". I am choosing not to run and hide. I will stand strong with my head held high.